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He’s a keeper

My new boyfriend is one of the best people I know, if not the best. After, coming out of one of the worst possible relationships, he has been nothing but supportive and trusting. He knows my ex is in a bad place in his life, and that I still try to help him. He gives me suggestions, trusts my opinions, and always offer his help. Every time we talk he asks if my ex is alright. He legitimately cares for him. He puts his life on the line all the time just to rescue strangers. He is a firefighter and an EMT, its his nature and I love it about him. He is my equal, my soulmate, my everything. I feel a little cheesy saying that because I never believed in such things. We have only known each other since last summer and have only been together a little over a month. Normally I would feel like its to early to love someone, but with him its different. When I’m around him all I can do is smile. I’m crazy about him. He is looking for everything in relationship that I’m looking for. He’s not pushing me to do things I don’t want, and he’s being very patient. He understands were I’m coming from, and that I need to work things out. He knows everything, he knows I’m not going to hide anything from him, and that I won’t. Also just figure I should note it, I work at a day care. And since I met him at work, that means he works with children and loves them. I can’t think of one thing I’d change about him if I could. To me he is perfect.

Bitchin

I just feel like I need to vent a little. I’m stressing about school, my ex, and just life in general. I so glad I keep my tumblr a secret from my friends. Sometimes a girl needs to bitch to random people. They just get tired of hearing it after a while. I twitter isn’t anonymous, so everyone has shit to say about it. I just broke up with the boy I’ve been in love with since I was 16, I’m now 20. I still love him, but I needed him to grow up a bit and stop making stupid decisions. Prove to me he didn’t need me standing over him to make the right decision. He was lying to me and keeping secrets, therefore he obviously didn’t trust me anymore. We needed a break, that all I asked for a break so our relationship wouldn’t go to shit. I go to school I come back, and in a month he is suspended from school, doing drugs again, and to top it all off. He has a 26 year old girlfriend with a kid. She doesn’t have a high school degree, a place to stay, or a job. Oh right and she wants to be a striper. Fucking fantastic. I try to help him and he just won’t let me. I think it time to give up. I think its time to let go, and accept the fact that I might be going to a funeral soon. He has made it so hard for me, made me cry billions of tears, broken my heart countless times. I have to move on to bigger and better, and right now I can. More to come I’m sure.   

Where have I been?

I think I need to start using tumblr again. It’s been so long, and its still anonymous. No one knows me here. So, I’m back!!!  

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I’m confused

I really don’t know what to do anymore. I know I’m happy as can be with you, but you’re so hot and cold. I just can tell if you’re happy or just putting on a fake smile. :/

Hey, I stumbled onto your "weight fail" post :/ I'm sorry you feel that way. It probably sounds SO weird coming from a totally RANDOM tumblr girl, but you really don't need to feel like that. Weight loss won't make you happy, and all in all, most people gain everything back anyway. Life's about acceptance. You have loved ones, you have a working,healthy body, and a lovely face. Message if you wanna talk, or just ignore this if you want, but either way i hope you feel better dreamsercem

You really do know how to make a person happy, Thank you.

weight fail

I’ve tried everything I can think of to lose weight the healthy way, and I’m just gaining it. I’ve put myself on a 1300 calorie diet, have been exercising almost everyday and eating healthy not junk. I’ve cut out all meat, mainly because, I don’t like meat, and have been making sure to get all my protein. Eating salads with little italian dressing and putting kidney and garbonzo beans on it. Eating all the fruits I need, and drink only water. I’ve been tracking all of this for months and nothing is happening. I’ve tried diet pills too, and nothing at all. Not even one little pound. And sure I can say well maybe it muscle weight I’ve been gaining but, I should be losing fat too, and I’m not. I’m ready to just give up and do it the unhealthy way. Not eating, over-working out, puking after ever meal. To me it seems like the only way anybody loses weight anymore. Its sad to think that girls think they need to weight 110 pounds, when there 5’ 10. I don’t even want that, I would just like a nice 160-140. I think I’m physical unattractive, and that even know I have a boyfriend who loves me and calls me beautiful everyday, I still don’t understand, why he thinks that way. Its like the saying how can you happy if you can’t learn to love yourself. It’s making me depressed to be this way, Its making me think things I shouldn’t. But, what else can I do?

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